Alright. I know. This is not the most appropriate time to write. Cause obviously I shouldn't have any time to write. But the thing is, when I'm stressed, sleep-deprived and on the brink of total collapse, there isn't much to live on. Really. And since I've claimed over a thousand times in this journal..within and beyond the posts, that I love to write, I thought why not? If I'm going to live up to my passions, I may as well just do it when I want to step back and relax.
So you can penalize for not giving you enough attention, dear blog. Or you could also thank me for actually being productive before the midterms come about...so that the time crunch I'm facing right now doesn't feel all that bad since I know - at least I'm pretty confident I think I know - that I'm good to go for the exam. Emphasis on the think. You see, just when confidence scale tips towards over-confidence, that's when the problem hits. So, my goal, for the next half hour is to keep that in balance and hopefully, instead of gearing backwards to my old habits of massively procrastinating and wasting away countless seconds, minutes and hours I'd actually like to convince and perhaps even give you enough faith to have in me.
I was reading my horoscope and although it is by no means a reflection of my character - because obviously I'd like to have more depth than that - it made me feel quite good when they labelled Capricorn women as the women on top. Or when you witness a Capricorn working, they're always aiming for the top and are pretty likely to get there. In my naive highschool days where I naively used to believe that shunning nerdhood was a good thing instead of bad, I would have totally jumped to twitter and leave a horribly scathing message to XSTROLOGY for writing incorrect things about people. But good sense comes to those who wait. Thankfully enough, back then, the only way I could check my horoscope was a get my hands on a copy of metro...and mind you, their horoscopes are kinda crap. So all in all, I've finally managed to embrace nerdhood - or was I always there in the first place? - and all I am feeling right now, is a sense of purpose...a feeling which has been a completely non-existent in the past two years. And this whole thing, took me fifteen minutes. Progress in gearing towards optimizing time & getting somewhere in life? I sure as hell think so.
